It Gone

Dear Diary , 09 . 06 . 2012 , Midnight Moon

It me again everyone :) .. Bet you can remember how I use to give my greetings .. well , today I gonna say sorry to all my active and playful readers that I can't be active today .. Just a little bit relationship problem going on me recently .. I just don't know why .. Aww .. Don't show that kind of face .. He is good and fine .. Really .. He is trust able , cute , romantic and just a sweet little cuddly bear ~ .. But somehow .. I really don't understand what less for me .. I really dislike my selfishness .. Trust me .. He is perfect in every ways :) .. Just maybe it my problem who is still young and obsess in challenges and the playful of freshness .. I just felt that things is kinda missing for me .. Not because he is not loyal , I trust him :) .. So far , we didn't even had a fight or conflict .. He treat me like I am a treasure haha .. He cares me alot , he being good with me all the time .. Okay , if I keep on continue describing how good he is , I bet till morning I can't finish haha .. But just .. I felt that the relationship is kinda like .. cold .. the feeling that once had lost .. I don't know about him .. But for me .. I felt like it lack of something .. I don't really feel right and comfortable with the lost of the feeling .. I wanna get it back .. But somehow maybe I still not trying hard .. I can't get it back .. Nevermind .. I will try harder :) .. I swear ! ;D .. Maybe it causes of something else I think .. I just really felt the relationship is like .. A almost complete jigsaw puzzle that lost it last piece , can't be completed .. He is a really good guy .. Just I felt something missing .. Darn it .. Why am I thinking like this ? .. Tell you a little secret .. I haven't sleep for a week .. Honestly .. My friends said I am an immortal as I am a restless person who won't sleep haha .. Sometimes , I lok into the mirror .. I see myself .. even I am just 14 .. But I look like I am a 60 years old grandma ! .. Poor face , Poor skin .. How many night have u been suffer ? :( .. I know .. I know it bad for me if I don't sleep .. I know all the beauty remedy girls :P .. even when I am typing right now .. Every midnight .. I don't on the lights .. Imagine I been hurting my eyesight every night in the dark even thought I know the bad effects for me .. But just .. I can't sleep :( .. Man .. Every night .. I been thinking what less in the relationship .. I still don't know whats missing .. Well .. I guess I need to stop awhile and talk to you guys .. After telling .. You all make me feel better :) .. Thanks my blog-y and all my lovely readers .. You really helps me alot ♥ .. Love You !! ;)) .. Well guys .. Maybe I should stand at the side of him too .. He is been trying so hard to fix thing right while I just keep giving trouble and problems .. Guess there a sentence of " Don't give me problem , Give me solution ! " .. I will try harder and my best to be good and treat him the best :) .. Wish me luck that I can find what less in the relationship ya !

Much Love ,
Pui Yi . ♥

A hickey would be the best

Dear Diary , 05 . 06 . 2012 , Midnight 4.04 a.m

Hello Everyone ! :D .. How are you guys going on ? .. Oh wait , most important .. How's holidays going on ? .. Is it just like how we said T.G.I.F or awesome night ? :) .. Well , whatevers it is .. I just gonna wish all the best for you all .. Me ? .. My school break is awesome ! .. Yeah , been a party girl recently .. Hey , who don't wanna give it all out like a truly teenager like no tomorrow ? .. I bet I would haha .. Hurmm .. I wonder how long it been sice the last time I posted eh .. Anyway maybe most of the readers been captured to read this because of the topic title isn't ? :P .. Well yeah .. It actually a inspiration words for what been up my mind during this teenager school break .. Oh gosh .. I guess I am addicted to my nightly fun ~ hehe .. What is it ? .. Party of course ! .. Darn it .. you just keep missing those excitement and how the bass and beat goes into your mind then goes to your heart while you just forget how to breath >< ! .. You would totally goes to a monster who lost control if you are deeply rolling in the music I am telling you .. Well .. Maybe because it the Cataracs ~ haha .. But yeah .. lets go to the point ? :) .. I just wanna give encouragement to people out there .. If you are afraid of shy to go and show or even enjoyed yourself .. I really give strong courage and support to you all , go out .. Have some fun and smile alot .. If you are ugly , smile alot .. A sweet girl with perfect smile like you can be the beauty queen of all models :) .. A girl without awesome body shape can be sexy just the way you move your body with CONFIDENT ! .. Come on guys , it holidays .. For me it 2 weeks , 14 days .. I don't knows how many hours in 14 days .. Spend it wisely .. People always asked , Eat to live OR Live to eat ? .. I do say .. We live to eat .. And we eat to life .. MOST IMPORTANT , we spend our days with happiness and without regret .. if not , what for eat to live or live to eat when you are depressed and sad all your life ? :) .. Think about it ~ .. On your phone and fill up your scheduled ! ♥ Much Love , Pui Yi , XoXo --> Hey , you don't wanna die with virgin right ?