This is NOT what I used to be [♥]

Dear diary , 28 . 03 . 2012 , Windy

Good morning everyone ! Its Vampire Night .. Hey , what with blur face ? .. Even thought it night now , but for me .. The Sun is rising up .. :) .. Sorry , I am night creature who always pro-active at night ~ .. Forgive me for my misbehave .. Yes ? .. Did I freak you guys out ? .. If you get what i'm talking about now .. Exactly ! .. Today topic is kinda naughty type yet seductive .. Well .. Who meet a seductive devil before or now who you already cling to ? .. It means , you can live on but somehow a little bit of his drug is a plus in your life that make you feel what you need .. Get me or not ? Lol.. :D .. Maybe I make it sounds complicated .. I meet one .. His evil starve maybe one of us don't want to see .. we not interest of .. but he is different .. his evil eyes does capture you and seduce you .. Just like a drug that make you feel 'nice' .. To be honest , I ain't a beginner .. I am somehow a little bad journal to naive girls who easily be influence .. But be honest .. no matter how many experience I got .. He make me feel like I am new in a trip .. He got a pair of curious hands .. which like to wonder anywhere he feel like going and touch .. The way he move his hands just wanna make u feel like strip even you are not a stripper .. He bring me back the feeling only he can bring which make you out of control and hardly breath .. The way he got naughty and bad ... The more I got interest in him .. The more I wanna have an adventure with him .. I just wanna make him starve and wanting for it .. I wanna make him fall in love .. I wanna kiss his lips and start everything on .. I know it may sound bad and ain't right .. But baby thats me .. I do it all alone who finding for one of a kind .. Are you dare to take that risk ? .. Just promise dont stop when I say so .. Well that all inspirations I can get tonight .. Hope you guys didn't get a boner .. Haha .. Have fun tonight ;) [♥][♥]

You Ain't Fun Anymore

Dear diary , 27 . 03 . 2012 , Cloudy

Hey Guys .. Really sorry that I didnt post recently as I am very obsessed in my school haha .. So lately just STUDY STUDY STUDY in my mind .. But everything there a stop and rest .. So here I am .. Where I let my feelings flow out .. Where my smile will bloom :D .. So , first of all .. I'm just gonna ask you guys how are you ? .. Haha .. common right ? .. I just care about you all somehow and I miss you guys badly too :( .. Okay , So today I gonna talk about a topic that kinda harsh .. It just a guy who may over confident that I would stay on him .. TO be honest , we already separated quite long .. But we keep in touch , you know .. at least we are friends .. But maybe he overtake it .. But actually for me .. I'm quite weird .. maybe other people outside may ask for get back together .. But I cant .. I just cant do it .. Those words " Sorry " or " come back " always stuck at the bottom of my throat and in the end I swallow it haha .. Once I say over .. It over .. I don't like second time =='' .. Weird right ? .. Lol .. I know .. But always there a beginning .. No pain no gain .. I will just smile all the time infront of you guys .. SO don't worry .. I really got what I want now .. He is the star I been looking for .. I love him .. And if I;m not mistakes .. Just a few more weeks .. Very soon gonna be 2 months .. I cant believe time pass so fast .. Never mind honey .. I will miss you all the time .. I will time of you even we are far apart now .. Got to go , Love ya .. Muakz .. Don't worry .. I already move on .. And I looking forward to us .. When it come to you .. It will just be us .. Nothing can tear us apart :) <3 .. I love you honey .. I really do :))) ..

Sincerely ,
Pui Yi ,
XoXo

A Promise

dear diary , 16 . 03 . 2012 , Sunny

Hey ~! .. Pui Yi back with a topic that sell like hot cakes now .. This topic is actually quite well known in teenagers and even young kids too .. A topic that fun to be discuss in teenager , a shy topic to kids and sensitive topic to adults such as parents , teachers and grandparents or siblings too .. Well yes . The image shown clearly .. A kiss .. A precious present to give away .. A seal between a pair of lover .. But to me .. It actually more like a promise .. Haha .. I know it may sounds funny but yeah .. A promise .. A promise to love each other , Take care to either one of two because of sickness , been through all problems such as money , career and age .. A kiss is actually something that can't be seen but can be feel .. A priceless gift .. A gift that can be give away like what we did usually which buy and post .. Especially to the girls and even boys out there .. A kind reminder , I suggest you guys keep your first kiss if you still got them .. It what all people want .. A innocent and good girl or boy .. Just certain situation cause people crazy for bad girls or boys more .. :) .. But believe me .. Seriously , deep in the heart .. All of us want the angel then demon .. But maybe nowadays people may think that a kiss is just a normal things happened around us .. But it a magic words to create miracle .. In seconds , a couple that love each other will be together and lock with their hearts :D .. The world is magical .. It full with surprise , learn to love .. Learn to save .. I am sure this bright and pure side of you will remain always :) ♥

Sincerely ,
Pui Yi ,
Good night and good luck for everything everyone :) .

A little sweet story ♥

Dear diary , 11 . 03 . 2012 , Sunny

Hello everyone !! ♥ .. Feel the heat today ? .. The Sun is bright and beautiful .. I suggest , it will be great if you go for a sunset joy with the one you been thinking of all the time :) .. Well , no offence .. If you are single , you can go for a picnic or swimming with you friends as it will be the best choice for such a hot day than going shopping center all the time right ? .. ok .. As the title tell all .. I'm actually here today to tell you guys a short cute story .. It all happened in seconds ! .. I remembered clearly .. On the 12 March of 2012 .. Just 2 days before Valentine day .. Everyone busy buying or searching present .. Even posting at Facebook by tagging their love one .. That time is really can be called as " Love is in the air ♥ " .. Well .. Too bad .. That time I'm still single haha :D .. Pity right ? .. But in a few thoughts , I found out it very funny yet cute .. I posted at Facebook that day which is , " I brought a present for Valentine but I found out no one to give it to TT^TT " .. In a few minutes , I thanked you God by looking up the sky because I got you , Mr right :) .. At the time , a guy ( can be called as stranger that time , Lol ) .. he commented that he having the same too .. We started a short conversation by commenting .. I found out that he is nice to talk to .. So we keep talking more and more by right , we don't know each other .. And guess it is miracle .. BUT maybe to some of the adults may comment that it is foolish .. as both of us don't know why .. He suddenly purpose to me .. And maybe i'm in the blurry mood , so I just gave a sweet answer by using a interesting way.. at that day , it is the beginning of our sweetness eventhough we are far apart .. All to your knowledge , I'm now in Penang yet he is in the capital city , Kuala Lumpur .. Yes , the tourist attraction of Malaysia :) .. But we never give up in keeping contact to each other .. On 13 March 2012 .. A silly girl stay up till midnight ( 1 a.m ) .. busying preparing Valentine day present to him .. I don't know why :) .. But as we just started , I'm not brave enough to gave something very aggressive so I just gave a cup with sweet words and a handmade - card which every piece I made and I pasted , I just smiling sweetly and thinking of him ... Funny me :D .. but sadly , he didn't get in on the exact day of Valentine as he is away when the postman arrived so he get it on 15 March yet he keep apologize .. Well , I replied " as long as you get my heart , all this doesnt matter .. " .. And so one .. our memories gain more and more .. and sweeter .. :) .. Hey .. I got to go to tuition now :) .. Will write again later ♥


♥ - TO BE CONTINUED - ♥

Sweetie pie [♥]

Dear diary , 10 . 03 . 2012 , Sunny

Sunshine morning everyone :) .. I don't know why I'm feeling like this .. But I just wanna tell you .. THat I think about you and all the time we been through once my eyes blink this morning ~ .. I miss you alot [♥] .. Sometimes I do asked myself , How are you ? .. I wonder what are you doing ? .. DO you feel the same like me ? .. But I think I'm just a fool writing empty papers to you :") .. Maybe all this words doesn't mean alot to you at all .. But it mean alot to me .. I know in the past , I been a burden to you .. I know and I still remember every things I did that may hurt your feeling in a harsh way .. I remembered how we talk when we get mad .. I remembered how my tears drop when I talk to you on the phone for several times .. When I flash back .. I found out i'm a silly fool .. But why I can't just erase everything ? .. I do asked myself alot of questions .. " Why do I think of you sometimes ? " .. " Why I still playing our song ? " .. " why everytime I hear our song , I found out it a melody piece of music ? " .. I really don't know why .. Everytime I just smile when I think back .. Everything had gone to memories now .. Let just keep it in the bottom of our heart .. and flash back sometimes once awhile .. I wish you still feel the same .. but now .. I see you changed alot .. Turn into a different new leaf .. completely .. I feel you like a stranger to me .. Yes , you turn into the one which all girls' bad boy .. that most girls willing to sell you their soul , their heart .. But you miss something .. Maybe when you do so .. you will be wanted all over .. but mostly girls'real dream prince .. is actually just a normal decent one .. the one who as to be simple and easy to get along .. that type of boy really easy to be with .. You feel comfortable and doesn't need to be wise when you walk beside with .. Well , I feel our gap getting bigger and bigger as you keep being like this now .. Let walk our separated ways with different directions .. Maybe I be a bad girl in the past .. the one who be a cat that bite your heart and steal your lips then run away .. but I hope you know .. I feel bored and irritated by the bad history in my history list .. I really want to erase them but sadly it can't .. I hope you don't repeat the same mistakes I did before .. it like now you reflect everything in the mirror on how I treat everyone before .. I feel ashamed .. Now I regret and I try to re correct my mistakes and go to a better way .. I don't know whether I hear from my friends is correct or wrong .. But I heard you got a new partner .. My last sentence to you , " treat her like she is treasure .. Not a dirt stick on your shoes " .. I got mine new one too :") .. I love him .. and I will let him feel he is treasure .. Let work hard together for the last time .. work hard to let them feel treasure like how they didn't feel before my friend :) .. Let have a new start that melody to be heard my everyone [♥]

Simple and clean :D

Dear diary , 10 . 03 . 2012 , Sunny

Make up anyone ? .. Yes , nowadays teenager and adults mostly wear make up already .. They look amazing and pretty .. but sometimes isn't it too much ? .. Don't get me wrong , I , myself wear make up too .. But I just hope you guys can understand my advice .. Girls , listen .. I know you all may love to been seen and attract of .. I admit , I like it too .. But sometimes .. When you wear too much , it just like you putting on a mask .. I do lost myself before .. With too much make up , sometimes I asked myself .. Who am I ? .. THe one with a normal face with some pimples and dark circles on .. or the one who have a flawless skin with big dolly eyes ? .. But when you asked me again .. Make up , yes .. You turn into a beauty .. But somehow you still need to remove them .. Can be say as a magic for a few moment .. But you still need to be yourself .. The real you .. If someone need you to have a big change , only will considered you are a big beauty .. Why don't you let him or her see the real you ? .. MAybe a few changes , it hard to cope suddenly .. but slowly by slowly .. Step by step , i bet he would love it .. If for some people who already grow root to make up , like me :D .. I don't much all the time .. LEns maybe sometimes I will wear on special events or parties .. Just a little foundation with blush ~ ,, A thin line of eyeliner and equal size with eye lens .. THat may enough already ~ ♥ .. Like the artist you see above , her flawless skin is the real one , with a pair of fresh eyes .. It really beautiful .. Eventhough not as big or sexy as the others .. Sometimes back to the basic is the best .. THink about it everyone .. The make up beauty , or the inner beauty ? .. [♥]

I'm still standing here , Waiting ♥

Dear diary , 9 . 03 . 2012 , Sunny

Hey ~ .. Good news in the air :D .. Want to know ? .. A few days back , I had an exam .. Yeah , not to say I add some spice or what .. but the exam is quite tough compare to form 1 .. THe most worrying subject to everyone is Mathematics .. Mostly people fail this time .. Yeah .. it bad :( .. Hope their mark will improve like high rise next time .. But yeah .. TOday I have Maths class and when my beautiful soul teacher announced .. She actually announced the marks with the score we get in paper 1 and 2 .. Paper 1 scoring I actually know from earlier as my close friend ( I don't am I considered a close friend to her or not .. but as long as she a close one to me ) Sarah Wong .. That her name .. A sweet name to be heard , a nice name to be write :) .. She told me that I score 16 per 20 in paper one while mostly my classmates and my friends score average is just 12 .. I wish I could help them :( .. And yeah .. Here come the most exciting part ! .. PAper 2 really like a knife to everyone .. It hurt alot of people feelings when they heard their score .. sorry .. for some reasons , I dont want to tell out what their average mark :) .. But yeah.. mine of course I will tell .. but I hope you guys will keep it as a secret .. Dont feel like bursting to everyone .. it 24 per 30 .. I will improve myself more next time .. :D .. That time , when teacher still anoucing other people's marks .. I was like " Please please please !! " .. I was nervous .. as I see many people get kinda low marks .. I lost my confident , I thought my marks will be lower too .. I shouted loudly when I heard I got such high marks than I expected , it 80% .. I was like .. " OMG !! @@ " .. I thought my marks will be lower than that alot and paper 2 score will be just 10 - 15 .. I just a happy news .. I was totally carried away ! .. But that moment , I clearly remembered .. I really hope he is around .. I don't know why .. But I really hope he could be the first one to know right after the announcement ..
Maybe if I tell out the name , some of my classmates will get shock .. He not to say very charming like all nowadays girls been dreaming about .. yet he don't have a muscular body that girls been crazy off .. but he had a heart of gold .. he like to smile alot .. he is friendly .. he is way caring than everyone I could know .. :D .. too bad .. he come across me that time .. All he does is the cool face yet giving me his shadow .. I kinda disappointed that time .. but just follow the flow :) .. Maybe I talk very emo today .. Sorry , just I think too much ~ .. So .. that all for today :)♥ .. THank you for listening ~

Sincerely ,
Pui Yi ,
XoXo