Dear diary , 10 . 03 . 2012 , Sunny
Sunshine morning everyone :) .. I don't know why I'm feeling like this .. But I just wanna tell you .. THat I think about you and all the time we been through once my eyes blink this morning ~ .. I miss you alot [♥] .. Sometimes I do asked myself , How are you ? .. I wonder what are you doing ? .. DO you feel the same like me ? .. But I think I'm just a fool writing empty papers to you :") .. Maybe all this words doesn't mean alot to you at all .. But it mean alot to me .. I know in the past , I been a burden to you .. I know and I still remember every things I did that may hurt your feeling in a harsh way .. I remembered how we talk when we get mad .. I remembered how my tears drop when I talk to you on the phone for several times .. When I flash back .. I found out i'm a silly fool .. But why I can't just erase everything ? .. I do asked myself alot of questions .. " Why do I think of you sometimes ? " .. " Why I still playing our song ? " .. " why everytime I hear our song , I found out it a melody piece of music ? " .. I really don't know why .. Everytime I just smile when I think back .. Everything had gone to memories now .. Let just keep it in the bottom of our heart .. and flash back sometimes once awhile .. I wish you still feel the same .. but now .. I see you changed alot .. Turn into a different new leaf .. completely .. I feel you like a stranger to me .. Yes , you turn into the one which all girls' bad boy .. that most girls willing to sell you their soul , their heart .. But you miss something .. Maybe when you do so .. you will be wanted all over .. but mostly girls'real dream prince .. is actually just a normal decent one .. the one who as to be simple and easy to get along .. that type of boy really easy to be with .. You feel comfortable and doesn't need to be wise when you walk beside with .. Well , I feel our gap getting bigger and bigger as you keep being like this now .. Let walk our separated ways with different directions .. Maybe I be a bad girl in the past .. the one who be a cat that bite your heart and steal your lips then run away .. but I hope you know .. I feel bored and irritated by the bad history in my history list .. I really want to erase them but sadly it can't .. I hope you don't repeat the same mistakes I did before .. it like now you reflect everything in the mirror on how I treat everyone before .. I feel ashamed .. Now I regret and I try to re correct my mistakes and go to a better way .. I don't know whether I hear from my friends is correct or wrong .. But I heard you got a new partner .. My last sentence to you , " treat her like she is treasure .. Not a dirt stick on your shoes " .. I got mine new one too :") .. I love him .. and I will let him feel he is treasure .. Let work hard together for the last time .. work hard to let them feel treasure like how they didn't feel before my friend :) .. Let have a new start that melody to be heard my everyone [♥]
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